That one that put me in my place.

For I project in my digital editing class we had to make a music video. And I was super excited - I had done music videos! I could nail this thing! I could show these guys that I could edit with the best of 'em! YES! I had a great plan, and I was ready to do well. And I think I did an okay job. I know that when people look at their own work they are not always satisfied. I'll admit I wish it was better, but it is good.

But I have also seen some of the other people's videos. They're all good, but some are just fantastic! The shots are so beautiful, the lighting is gorgeous, the music track is brilliant... And then I look at mine. And I realize that theirs is better than mine. So I try to make mine better. I think it worked a little bit, but then I saw theirs again, and I was like... wow! That is incredible!

And once again I realize, I am not the best at this. I have a lot to learn and a lot to grow up to. I am NOT there yet, and there are others who are much farther down the road than I am. And it hurts. A lot. I like being first, I like being the best, or at least top tier. But when I see people whom I have helped here and there surpass me, I go crazy. Its so hard to know that I am not the best.

I was told that I am really good at these things. I was told I would do well in college. I was under the understanding that I am better than most of my peers. WRONG! And that stinks!

And it's a good reminder - the world is not about me, and I still need to learn a lot. There are others out there who blow me out of the park. There are things that are more important than me. To quote Quai-Gon Jin, "There's always a bigger fish!" And I need to remember that!